"2015: NEW YEAR-NEW LIFE" (1-3-15)

It's January 3, 2015 and it is definitely time for a new year! I have had quite a few rocky roads in my life but 2012- 2014 seemed to have had quite a few BOULDERS to overcome and I haven't overcome them all yet.  I am now staying with my friend Roma in her apartment until the final court date arrives and I can start making plans for my future.

Right now I feel as if I am lost... Uprooted after thirty years in my house, I have been grieving as if I had lost a family member. My little house was a part of my family.  I miss all of the little "characteristics" that made it home. The "collage" pasted to the inside of Laura's closet door made me so angry the first time I saw it! But I cried as I closed that closet door on those memories one last time.

I could actually feel my heart breaking as I walked through Sarah's room, remembering all of the good times that were painted with fingernail polish on the walls..."Sarah + Melissa = B.F.F", "I love ____!" "S.E. + H.J.= 4EVER". The tears poured down my face as I spotted the pencil writing on the wall..."I hate you Mom!" Of course, those words were written in a fit of anger because I had to be a mother and do what I knew was the right thing to do at the time. I was upset the first time I saw it and Sarah apologized because she had realized that Mom was right and I only loved her and wanted the best for her.

Seeing those words,  as I left my little house for the very last time, hurt like nothing had hurt me before but I had to be strong! I am being a mother and I had to do what I knew was the right thing to do. This time I had to do it not only for my daughter but for my granddaughters as well.  I thank God for the strength that He has given me to go on, knowing that those words "I hate you Mom!" are only words and I know she knows me well enough to know that I am always compelled to do what I feel is the right thing to do.  I know that one day I will again hear those words "I love you, Mom! I'm sorry! I was just mad!".


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Today | 19:16

My favorite products we sold were the Genuine Navajo Dreamcatchers! this company supplies work for Navajo tribe. VW&GT donated 10% to "Dreamcatchers-Abused kids

Today | 19:11

I love our little bees! Such beautiful and delicious products from such tiny little beings!

Today | 19:08

Unfortunately, my health forced me to close the shop, but I will still love and heal the world in whatever way God leads me next!

Today | 18:48

Thank you for your nice note! Had a few more setbacks, Rheumatoid Arthritis AND Type 2 Diabetes all in the same week! Sorry I don't know where you can get cards

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